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Hello. I’ve decided to resurrect this blog once again. I don’t know why I’ve had such a hard time bringing it back to life, especially when it was such an important part of my life back in the day. I think part of it was because “everybody” took so much of what I wrote personally, or tried to analyze the posts too much. Nothing to analyze here.

Lots has been happening! We’re currently experiencing the coronavirus hysteria—LA is going on lockdown pretty soon I think. Mar and Mike postponed their wedding, as did Fern and Flor. It’s strange when the entire country experiences something together. The vibe is different, mostly because there is fear in the air. And of course, like when there was hatred and fear of Middle Easterners after 9/11, now ignorant peeps are fearing the yellow-skinned orientals and spread of the “Chinese virus.”

What’s been new with me…I’ve been substitute teaching ESL at the local language schools. I like it a lot even though some of the students just look at their phones the whole time. I’m supposed to enforce the no-phones policy, but since I’m just a sub, I rarely do. I don’t want to the be the babysitter who thinks she’s the mom. I’m the fun sub—you remember the feeling of walking into class and seeing a sub, and going “Yesss!” I want all the students to see me and fist pump a yes.

The other thing that’s been up with me is that I’ve been trying to follow the “millionaire morning routine.” It entails waking up early, meditating, journaling, and creating to-do lists. I started on March 2, and it has been a lifechanger for me. I thought I would struggle with the meditation, but I just listen and follow a guided meditation on Youtube, and it’s great. I have been journaling too, but morning journaling is different from nighttime journaling, like I do (did/will do) with this blog. This type of journaling is superior, since I get to reflect on what happened during the day. Morning journaling is more about basking in the refreshment of a new day. But I do feel much more excited, less rushed, more alive, more motivated since I’ve been waking up early, meditating, and journaling. Mind you early for me means any time before 8. I have an alarm set for 6:45, but since I stay up late, that one usually gets shutdown. Backup alarm for 7:15. Snooze a couple times.

And the last thing…that also started this month…is that I’m reading again. I’ve been trying to read a book a week. I get them from the library. Last week I read a novel by an NPR host, and it was not that great. This week I’m reading “Stillness is the Key” by Ryan Holiday. Dave gave Eddie a copy. Eddie listened to the audiobook, and I’m reading the book now. I was reading it in bed tonight and read the chapter about journaling and all its benefits. I climbed out of bed and fired up the laptop to write this post.

And now I am going back to bed. Should write more tomorrow night. This was so nice.

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