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man, i was not feeling that good today even though this cold really isn’t that much of a bother.  i will be used to the symptoms by tomorrow.

staying the night at my mom’s house.  it is relaxing (boring) here so i’ll probably be asleep early.  nothing too exciting going on here.  we ate some delicious dinner and i chatted with my brother until he started dozing off on the couch.  then i talked to frankie until he started dozing off on the phone.  i thought my stories were better than that, guys.

i won’t be “partying” on new year’s eve.  too bad i’m not really in the mood to celebrate.  it can be so fun or so disappointing.  like any girl, i just want to spend it with my boyfriend and kiss him at midnight.  but this year i will just have to enjoy laughter and spend meaningful time with my mom.  it will be great, but i will miss the romance.  pretty silly, right?  this is a brand new year and there is plenty of time for things like that in 2010.  i can’t wait.

i also can’t wait to eat some delicious holiday fruitcake and coffee.  you can’t wrap up the holidays without going for the fruitcake.

i don’t know how or why, but i’m fighting off another cold.  what on earth is going on.  i remember talking big and loud about how i never get sick.  this year they shut me down for that violation.  it could be worse though.  i could be on my deathbed and then almost die three times before really dying.

i hope i’m better by new year’s eve because i have many mandus to make and i don’t want to wear a sarsgaard while i’m working in the dumpling factory and drinking champagne.

tonight i organized my closet.  threw out (donated) two large bags of clothes and a few pairs of boots that i bought and never wore because i just never really figured out the whole boots thing.  it’s not really a shame either.

i’m a little bit tired and cold.  i think i will read and try to go to bed early.  i should also pack for my new year’s getaway to lovely southeast pasadena.

jeez, i got fat during the holidays.

i didn’t really enjoy returning to work today, but my office is comfy and warm and there is really nothing to not like about work except for the unfinished work.  so i guess everything is fine/good.  tomorrow will be great too.

i think the air in my bedroom was really chilly last night because i woke up with a bit of a sore throat and something a little funky with my sinuses.  And I didn’t sleep with our baby, but tonight I will.  Sinus rinse time.

so long to the year 2009.  a decade ago i was on my deathbed.  i lived.  but this year was super rad because i confirmed once and for all that my gut feelings are pretty much always right.  it was a long experiment, but at least the conclusions were favorable.  and the findings valuable.  i kind of already knew what would happen, things were all wrong, when i walked into the room i felt my energy drain right out of me.  it was just nice to prove it.  so i won’t be questioning my own wisdom in 2010.  thank goodness for that.

in 2010 i want to stop hating boys and hang tight with one.  the best one.  and guess what, my gut feelings are all about it.

i’m home, typing away under my new snuggie blanket.  snuggie deluxe even.  it is quite warm.  i think there needs to be some kind of clasp, hook, button, or Velcro thing at the back of the “collar” to prevent the Snuggie from slipping down.  I also think the sleeves should have some built-in gloves or mittens.  i have a few other ideas that may improve the snuggie, but i should be discussing them with my patent lawyer friend instead….

i haven’t been home for a few days, so when i came back i found another package on my doorstep.  the box was filled with many delicious things that one cannot get with ease on this hemisphere.  my friends are so, so great.  i love miki.

today i had coffee and “lunch” with jonocorp.  he brought me some great gifts and a very tasty lamb chop.  we talked about christmas and family and getting presents.  it is fun to chat and hear about families and brothers who are so different from mine.  just hug your brother.

i took a sip of coca-cola from a can for the first time in years and it was delicious.  like in the road.

my day was here and then it was gone.  fast.  now i’m supposed to go to sleep and then wake up for work.  ridiculous.

stayed in these pajamas for the second day in a row.  or “two days in a roll” as my mom would say.  i woke up at noon again and drank some coffee and ate some lunch with my brother and art.  and then i don’t know what else i did, but the time flew.

i set up my new skateboard.  haha, sure been dismantling and reassembling lots of boards and parts lately.  my brother applied the griptape on my new deck for me since i’ve never applied griptape before in my life due to my fear of air bubbles and general lack of confidence.  my new board feels good.  the poser in me kept blaming the other boards for lack of pop, but now i know the problem is me.  i need to practice and learn how to skate on a ramp like all the other old lady skateboarders.

it got late.  i reminisced tonight.  mostly unpleasant recollections, which isn’t really recommended unless you have your head and heart in a really good/much better/best place, which mine happen to be.  i’m more grateful than ever.  and i won’t be making those same mistakes ever again.  that’s for sure.

i suppose i should sleep before the hour of the point of no return.  i feel i could sleep all night with my eyes open.

yes, i stayed in my pajamas all day.  i woke up early too, with minimal sleep.  didn’t step out of the house all day.  ate a bunch of leftovers and that’s about it.  i’m pretty sick of white people food at this point.  could totally go for the yucatan tamale and other parties on my (your) palate though.

i hear paul snoring in the other room again.  except this time he’s sitting in a chair, which looks even more uncomfortable than the cold hardwood floor.  but i guess he’ll be just fine.  and by the way, my mom was really disappointed in me for leaving paul on the floor last night.  but what could i do.  and now he’s in a chair…

the holidays are really great for doing nothing.  about everything.

christmas eve was wonderful.  i woke up about ten minutes before noon to meet rudy for coffee.  i got the update on weight lifting and vanilla extract and we exchanged gifts.  it is always so nice to see him, and this might’ve been the first time we weren’t drinking alcohol.  but we got wired on coffee.  the gifts he got me were extremely rad.  my friends must love me.

my family holiday dinner was fantastic.  we had two guests join us: art (shy thai) and 21-year-old brian (you don’t know him, but he’s black!).  it’s always nice to have art join us, and young brian was very nice and funny.  my bacon jalapeno cheddar mac was a hit, and my brother still makes the best mashed potatoes.  art brought some tasty wine and his homemade banana cream pie.  also a pecan pie.  and yes, we also ate the tres leches cake.  we are such hogs.  it made me feel good when art said, “once you come to a kim holiday dinner, you’ll want to be invited every year.”

after dessert and coffee we drank scotch and waited for paul to show up.  at midnight we opened our gifts.  remember when i asked my brother for a snuggie blanket.  well, he got me two of them.  one to use at home, and one to use at my mom’s house.  he also got me a butcher block that weighs about 50 lbs and a new flip skateboard deck to replace the soggy baker board.  he is the best brother.  i received a bunch of other really cool things that i should not brag about, but i mostly enjoyed all the warmth and laughter surrounding me.  i’m so fortunate when it comes to family and friends.  christmas wasn’t always like this for people like us growing up.

i hear paul snoring in the other room.  he passed out on the hardwood floor so my brother covered him with a snuggie.  the pink snuggie.  haha.  i felt bad so i tried to wake him so he could sleep in the bed, but he said no.  if my mom sees him sleeping on the floor she will be mad at me for permitting that.

so, did you feel relaxed and happy this christmas.  did you see some of your favorite people smile.  did you unwrap a gift from a friend and then feel your heart get warm?  i did.  and did you wish you could have given more.  did you wish there were more hours in the day.  did you feel like someone was missing?  i did too.

merry christmas, everybody.

at my mom’s house.  got off work early and arrived here with some delicious things like beer, wine, and the trader joe’s truffle mousse pate, which was very good.  i also got the tres leches cake from porto’s but we decided to save it for christmas eve dinner.  for wednesday night dinner my mom made braised short ribs which were very delicious.  there were carrots and sweet potatoes, but one of the carrots looked like a human finger.  i took a bite of it and then .001 seconds later i pretended i was gagging like the guy eating the finger french fry in the original version of the hitcher.  I thought my mom would get mad at me but she liked it.  i absolutely love when movies have scenes where people eat nasty things that appear as food.  like rice that’s really maggots.

after dinner i chilled and then my mom made me do a bunch of gift wrapping for her.  And then my brother made me wrap some huge thing for him.  they tell me i should wrap all the presents because i’m the best wrapper.  they think they’re tricking me by saying that, but i actually enjoy wrapping gifts.  and i am the best wrapper alive.  swagger right.

i feel tired.  i’m going to go to bed early and wake up when my eyes open.  before noon though.  i have to remember to buy a fresh baguette tomorrow.

I tried to handle some more household chores tonight, but again, did not accomplish much.  i will give charlotte a bath, wash some dishes, pack for the holiday weekend, and watch a movie myself to sleep with a hot toddy walker red.

tonight i attempted to solve my (okay, paul’s) rubik’s cube but it reminded me that i have a pea brain.  i’ll leave it for people with bigger brains who remember where i parked my own car.

and tomorrow i’m going to porto’s to pick up a tres leches cake.  but i have a feeling i’m going to forget to go there since my pea brain forgets everything now.

hmm.  drama at my neighbor’s place.  i just heard the girlfriend scream, “i hate you!” and slam the gate.  that’s a weird thing to yell at your boyfriend.  people get weird this time of year.

wow, look at me, been single for six months now.  hardest part was staying single.  just kidding.  not really.  my new year’s resolution is to get a boyfriend.  one that’ll never make me pump the gas when it’s raining.

i get weird this time of year.  and i have lots of things to do before bed.

enjoy the upcoming days of this blessed holiday season.

today was pretty mellow.  i just wanted to chill at home, which is exactly what i did.

i received a surprise christmas package in the mail today from my bff turbodave.  It was full of packs of hi-chew candy, a card, and a gift card with an amount that is way too high!  my friends are great and they always give me what i want and need.  but really, their presence in my life makes the greatest presents.

what are you doing?  me:  eating candy and watching jeopardy!.
you’re eating candy???  me:  yeah.

tonight i read some william butler yeats poems and biographic information.  it was good and kind of boring, but somehow it got late.