RJK 5000

stayed in and had a blockbuster night.  hate boys, so didn’t really feel like going out and looking at any.  brought home the dvds and discovered that one of the cases was empty.  annoying.  i watched rachel getting married.  if it hadn’t been for good acting by anne hathaway, the cool dad character, and a few good dramatic scenes, i would call it a very agonizing (boring) movie.

I just drank a little bit of my homemade kefir.  it appears that it needs to be homogenized.  it is very weird (separated into two layers) and kind of scary, but i like it.

i think i’m supposed to meet my best friend miki and her kid for pancakes tomorrow morning.  they are in town this weekend, but it seems their schedule is packed with mom and kid things (which i have minimal interest in, except that it’s them), so it looks like i’ll be lucky if i see them at all.  i miss her.  i’ll never forget her driving down the snowy mountain after a long day of drunken snowboarding with one hand on the wheel and the other hand holding a bud light.  haha!  but she is a great mom!

i went to target.  slim pickins on the stuffed animal selection.  they had a stuffed june which was the most expensive one there.

i’m going to go watch some super tv and hopefully fall asleep.  i might drink wine, or maybe some bushmills.  just to relax and get me through the rest of the night.

today was a swell day i think.  my co-authority on highland park eats treated me to lunch at the vegetarian restaurant.  it was weird in there, but i like fake meat products so it was a good meal.  i got fake chicken.  i liked the “texture.”  the blue hen/good girl dinette broads are never going to let me sample their food i guess.

also, jonocorp gave me some tibetan milk mushroom so i am now making my own kefir.  i’m just getting weirder and weirder these days.

i stayed late at the office again.  i know what the cleaning lady looks like.  like abuelita.

i went to the gym tonight.  it was the first time i’ve been back to that particular location in a long time.  it has really gone downhill.  the locker room was a mess.  that’s what happens.

sure glad about friday.  i kind of want a hamburger.  a real good one.  but i’m just liking the idea of it.

i didn’t work late today.  i don’t work late when there’s wednesday night dinner to be had.  my mom and i talked over sushi.  she told me that she was up until 3am last night reading fob jokes on the internet.  she is funny.  one of her favorite ones was about the guy whose wife was really sick with a fever so he called 911 and told the dispatcher, “my wife is so hot.”  =/

i was emotionally distracted then exhausted today.  i think my stupid blog post from yesterday made all sorts of weird energy beams shoot directly at my brain and heart.  no further comment about that really.  but it’s fun to say i hate boys.

speaking of boys, a cute boy at the gas station who drives a car that is cooler than mine gave me his phone number.  he had some pretty fresh sneakers, but i will never call.  he gave me a compliment that was borderline psychopathic.

when i look at myself in the mirror, i get discouraged.  for the life of me i can’t get my arms to get ripped.  haha.

i’m going to rest now.  tomorrow is going to be a long, hard day.

stayed late in the office again this evening.  been pretty busy and tired lately.  i haven’t been myself lately it seems.

so, guess what, i’ve been “single” for about a month now.  like for the first time in my life since i was 19.  i got “dumped” again (yeah, i’m awesome.)  i’m all right.  i’ve described being single as not only a risk factor for depression, but also as “a piece of cake,” and “a total joke.”  my wise friend michelle says i should enjoy this time since it won’t last long.  indeed.  the only problem, i hate boys.  most of them are so unlike me, and i keep seeing them do what looks like the wrong thing all the time.  but don’t worry about me, i’ve been making new friends and reflecting on my past relationships.  no regrets.  certainly missing this and that.  when she’s gone i won’t come back.  people kept saying i was too nice and pretty for marco anyway.  hahaha, just kidding, nobody said that!  i’m funny.

Went to see mike watt play tonight.  it was a really good show.  we chatted for a bit and i learned some family history and lots of other interesting things about him.  it was neat, he is down with pedro.  also, i drank one of his pbrs, since he didn’t want it.  he is a sensational person, and plays bass pretty good too.

earlier in the night, i caught up with my friend anast (formerly known as byrone).  we had a really good talk too.  he is in hawaii!

i’m so glad i can sleep in tomorrow.

i stayed at work late again.  you’d think it would feel different or fun or weird with nobody else in the building, but it doesn’t.  i just wanted to finish up and get out of there as soon as i could.  i didn’t finish.

i came home and watched “nerakhoon (the betrayal)” on pbs.  it was great.  jfk’s pronunciation of laos was embarrassing.

i wanted to hit up the skatepark today, but i think i should recover my sk8 legs in a less public arena before i go injure myself in front of all the children and parents at the park.  it will also be really embarrassing when i can’t do the axle stall.  still.  ugh.  if mike v. is there we will skate the tiny rail, or at least talk about how we used to do it.

sure glad it’s friday.  i’m going to listen to my birthday mp3s and see if i fall asleep.

i was in a weird mood today.

the most exciting thing about today was having my broken car stereo unit replaced.  nothing fancy, just oem.  i listened to depeche mode speak & spell really loud and it made me feel really happy.  too bad my speakers are fried.

after work i had wednesday night dinner with my beloved family and then i did some laundry and watched “lost in beijing.”  it was an okay movie.  one of the main dudes looked like wet blanket.

i need to take a shower, but i might do it in the morning.  these days, i do things i normally don’t.  would, but don’t.  it hasn’t made all the difference.

i’m listening to some sort of swedish band.  ever since my recent viewing of the chocolate war i’ve been “into” old (or new) “80s” bands like yaz.  yesterday someone gave me a large CD collection of amazing “industrial,” “goth,” and scary german dance music.  some of it is really outstanding stuff like this covenant northern light cd.  and some of it is too theatrical.  but i think the joke is on me for making fun of sasha and khara back in high school.  i’ve been missing out.

my mom called saying she was concerned about my brother, since they haven’t spoken or seen each other in days even though they live under the same roof.  she got mad at me for not wanting to get involved or “caring,” even though last time i tried to intervene she got super mad at me.  i ended up calling my brother just to make sure he was alive and well, and he was.  then i told my mom that he is just fine and that she ought to just try speaking to him like a normal person instead of immediately busting his chops about things like car registration and taking out the trash.  and then of course she started to get mad at me.  i asked her to stop and listen to what i was saying.  she said, “yeah, yeah, i get it, bye.”  koreans.

i haven’t been accomplishing very much working “overtime” on the audio editing.  i think i’m supposed to fade out the p-pops.  i don’t know if they know this or not, but i don’t do that.  me, i just cut and sometimes paste.

i feel weird.  i think it’s exhaustion.

this is my kind of weather.  I went sunbathing on Saturday with my best girl friends.  We drank beer by the pool and relaxed.  i did the backstroke and genuinely said, “ahh, this is the life.”  later on, a few of us met for drinks at the local german tavern.  it was really crowded there, but fun.  a kickball player asked me why i don’t play kickball too.  my friend aaron said, “because she’s a skater.  she doesn’t need to.”  that was my favorite thing he said.

today i took care of some business and then relaxed.  i watched a lot of television.  they play the best infomercials on sundays.

this is going to be a long work week.  i’m planning on working “overtime,” which is not my normal style.

i got rid of my old television set.  i had planned on listing it as a freebie on craigslist, but thought it would be nicer to post it on a myspace bulletin just in case a friend wanted it.  and a friend did, chris clark came and took it away within one to two hours of my posting.  he laughed at me because i broke a sweat while helping him haul it to his car (it was heavy!).  it was nice to see him.  his kid looks really cute, i mean, for a baby.

i stopped by my mom’s house for a minute.  she mentioned that she attempted to speak to my brother.  like she finally gave in because she’s the mom; she worries about him.  i don’t know if things are any better, but talking is a start.  aren’t they just so silly.  my brother is nice though.  he cooked me that delicious brunch.

I guess I’ll be going to sleep now.